Spring 2013
אביב תשע''ג
"!Monkey brain, monkey
brain, you've got monkey brain"
.says the bald tiny monk with red
robes
Pick up your toes and let your
lungs suck up air till you begin
to
.be weightless
Close your eyes, sit back, and
enjoy the sensations because
we're on the road to self-awakened
.messianic salvation
,Sweep the dust from your doorstep
.lets you see little chicken feet
,There's a circle of demons around
you
cackling like gibbons, and they're
just waiting to steel every copper
penny
you have for the train ticket.
HOME--
,I saw one with a camel head
.and a bear body with gorilla paws
With a thump and a wump he grabbed
my head
and
dragged me straight down to Sheol
,to say hello to my ex-boyfriend
,Monkey brain, monkey brain,
you've got monkey brain," they chanted"
.imitating the tiny bald monk with
red robes
Once again, I closed my eyes
and sniffed up all that hot
hellish air
and floated up like a 15 year old
.boy in the woods behind the skate
park
Up and up enough to cling to a
ledge
and traversed that jagged
granite face
.to the gates of Love
Each
move, a breath
each
kick, a moan
each
cleft, I gasped
!made
my muscles throb and SCREAM
in ecstasy
The Merciful One was pushing
the rock into my body and I no
longer
.needed my limbs to keep going
When I opened my eyes, warm light
.drizzled into my ears and wet my
face
There was only white and a kite
with pink, blue, orange and indigo
.ribbons shimmering their plastic
happy charm
Let's go fly a kite, for I'm not
.even close to the highest heights
Let's go fly a kite and say we're
pouring
out the rest of our ideas and
thoughts
.and camomille-tea inspired
creative-shit
I'm sweating hot angry bullets and
years
of pent up travesties
The Supreme Judge has a plan for
me
and my justice can't be made
until I'm empty of everything but
.my lungs and a heart and a pretty
face
Then I'll be a true air-head
.and
will have halal
for endless hevel
I'll be propped on the security
fence between
existence and non-existence and
.only then will my monkey brain go
away
